Destructive relationships

The first time someone broke up with me was when I was 17. I was really in love with her. I’m a bit of a self-destructive sort back then so it spiraled into a haze of binge

that lasted for months. I guess you’ll call it

love at that age, but with hormones raging and all that, the emotional instability causes you to think it’s worse than it is.

Anyway, I started dating this girl after that who I guess can be called a rebound-turned-into-a-long-term-relationship.

However, 2 years later when the original came back and asked me if I wanted to try again (her words) I didn’t even think, I

the rebound.

The original girl I was so infatuated with dumped me 3 days after that for her old boyfriend. #bossplayer

That’s a two year relationship wasted for just 3 days of happiness. Rose tinted glasses does that to you.

The only other time I can remember being so #epicfail was when I was working in Kuching. I was dating this

who I literally

I thought she was perfection personified. She was The One (TM). I was happy for several months before I discovered that she was dating me for all the wrong reasons.

She dumped me for her old boyfriend (notice a trend here?) and left me devastated.

I

outside her house for an entire night until her mom came out with water and

for me. She on the other hand, never even bothered to look out the window. #likeaboss

I once again started a self-destructive methamphetamine habit (which I quit for her) and doing reckless shit like

90 cc of crystal meth with just 10 cc of water using the cold shake method. I also attempted

to get her attention. Little good did that do, hell, I’m even embarrassed to admit it now.

Anyway, since then I think I have zero meaningful relationships. I just messed around a bit (okay, a lot) and skated on thin, surface relationships.

I think that in that period all my relationships can only be politely described as being with people who are

However, about a year back I started to think more about serious relationships. Not all of them worked but at least I stopped being such a asshole. I think that’s a really great start.

I guess life is like a box of

You never know what you’re going to get.

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